So then I have my koan, how do I write "100 Days of Dharma" without words? I could simply say enough words and stop, or write less frequently (which in truth would be much more convenient for me) but I want to complete my 100 Days of Dharma for a variety of reason. I guess I am curious to see if I can do it. And it feels like good Dharma practice to go through with it, good discipline. When I look inside, the combination of writing and the Dharma have clicked into their little lock position. And it's a way to build a little writing muscle, weight lifting the alphabet.
Originally it was my plan to just write in a private journal, you know one with a lovely cover and lined pages. I think if I'd done that I might not be wondering if it were too many words, but that's speculation at this point. I ended up in the blogosphere because of an Etsy tip that suggested a blog was a good companion to your shop. Supposedly I was to write about Etsy related stuff. Yet the blogging immediately took on a life of it's own that doesn't have a huge amount to do with Etsy other than providing a little welcome mat to the shop.
When I started I thought the blog will make me more committed, less likely to abandon the empty page when the first pang of sloth & torpor hit (sound like a couple of cartoon characters don't they?). The threat of a little public shaming is apparently effective for me. But I think the public nature of the writing is also what leads me to ask " is this too many words?" Then I have to ask why is this? Is it my ego, my little self again, primping and straightening in front of the mirror? Am I simply worried that you will think I'm a blabbermouth, a bag of self inflated hot air, a windbag of tornado proportions, a blathering bombastic Buddha babbler (okay enough already) ? I think if I am to be truthful there is some of that.
So I am thinking about silence, the fact that we need silence to get to know ourselves, that our true realizations often come when we are sitting silently. And that in general I know I'd be better off if I listened more and talked less. And so there is the work for today and always. And so I will end with fewer words than usual perhaps, a fitting ode to silence and right speech and with a quote from Sengstau, the 3rd Zen Patriarch "The more you talk and think about it, the further astray you wander from the truth." I think I am going to need a very big bag of bread crumbs to get me home, Hansel.